Formerly known as FFXFan

Just blogging here before I go to bed. In all honesty, I just wanted to write somewhere just how lonely I'm feeling at the moment, and how relieved I am that Saturday is just around the corner.

Because of engineering works on the trains, I've been unable to see Mena for the past two weeks. To start with, it wasn't that bad, but as the time's passed I've started to miss her more and more, and to be honest quite recently it's been a bit unbearable. On Saturday evening, after we'd finished talking on the phone, I remember staying awake for the next half an hour or so, first staring at the ceiling, and then facing a pillow she'd slept on the last time she was here. There was nothing going through my mind except how great it's going to be when I can finally pull her into my arms, and into a very much missed, and long needed, embrace.

It's times like these that remind me how much I need her, and how much I long for us to have a future together. It's funny that I used to be so comfortable with being alone. It was something I'd come to terms with, and yet now I find it so painful sometimes. Maybe it's because I've realised just how much better life is when you have somebody special to share it with. I never had that when I was growing up. When I was going through all my troubles, I never had the feeling that there was somebody there for me. Now I do have somebody special, I don't want to go back to that. I don't like being alone anymore.

Thanks for reading.
-=Gavvie=-