Formerly known as FFXFan

Hello. I'm back in my bitching mode again, and this one's gonna be even better than yesterday.

So then, Sina. Mena's "best friend", who I'm fairly sure has also had a blog written about her in the past. At the time, assuming I have written one about her before, I was moaning about how she assumed that Mena would always be there for her, through thick and thin. This eventually pissed her off no end, and she told Sina how she felt. Sina then vowed that she'd change her ways, and that's what she did. I stayed a little apprehensive of this, and my apprehension has been pretty much confirmed.

You see, she's reverted back into this state of mind which allows her to talk infinately about herself, and then as soon as the conversation starts to turn, she quickly shifts the attention back to herself. In any other case, this would be referred to as being an "attention whore", but I'm not quite sure whether we're at that stage yet, so I shan't use the term to describe it. Maybe later.

It's getting to the stage where I don't even think she cares about her friends anymore. I think she's in this bubble where all that matters is her and Prav, her on-again-off-again 'boyfriend'. They're currently on a break, which was Prav's doing, and congratulations to him. Because of the way she is, I think he's better off finding somebody a bit more consistent. If they ever get back together, I reckon I could count on one hand the number of days it'll be until they break up again because of some argument, which Sina always starts. She told Mena that she was going to leave him alone during this break, then 15-20 minutes later was trying to call him, wanting to talk to him. This just goes to prove that she's completely unable to follow somebody's honest advice, as Mena told her it was the right thing to do. Prav broke up with you to have some time to himself. I'm sure the last thing he wants is for you to be on his back all the time.

This blog is going to be a very fair, and very critical, account of exactly who you are. Everything that's gone wrong in your life recently has been YOUR doing, and nobody elses. This is something you're more than fully aware of, but for some reason you're not willing to do anything about it. If you're not going to do anything about it, then STOP FUCKING COMPLAINING ABOUT IT!!!! Seriously, it's annoying everybody hearing you moan about how your life is so shit, and how your parents treat you like crap, and that everything's your fault blahblahblahshutthefuckupalready. You had the power to keep your parents on your side. Knowing the consequences of your actions, you still agreed to go on holiday with Prav, so you can't complain about how life at home's so hard. You knew what you was getting yourself into, and you had the power to prevent that. The ball was in your court, you just decided to put the blinkers on and follow the path you was walking rather blindly. Now you're single, and I'm hoping the mistakes you've made are becoming more glaringly obvious.

Mistake #2: Not caring about your friends. You should be fucking grateful that you have a friend like Mena. She's always been an ear for you to moan into, but you've not changed at all. If Mena needs somebody to talk you, you're not the first person she turns to anymore, because you're just not interested. You're not interested in her as a person, or as a friend. I believe she's currently missing two birthday presents from you and a graduation present. TWO birthday presents. When she was around yours on Monday, and she asked for them, I believe you responded with "Here's your bag". This is completely unacceptable, you fucking stupid bitch of a friend! You should've been hunting them all down and apologising for taking so long to give them to her. To be honest, I'm even doubting that you bought any presents, using your own money for your own selfish gains, and to fund your oh-so-hard life. You have absolutely no right to call Mena your best friend/sister/lover/anything else you want to call her, and you definately have no right to assume that she thinks the same of you.

I'm writing this blog entry with the approval of Mena, I hope you know. She won't say these things to you, because she doesn't like making a scene, or trying to argue with somebody whose ears are closed to any voice besides their own. So, if you happen to read this, and you ask Mena about what you've just read, and what you're about to read, I can assure you that she's not going to disagree with any of this, so don't you even try and delude yourself for one second by thinking that it's just Gav having a go at you. There's two voices in this blog, so shut up and listen.

If I had any say in how Mena lived her life, I'd be telling her to ditch you, forget about you and move on. I'd be telling her to bin each and every letter she receives that's meant for you, despite telling you to change your address fuck knows how many times. I'd be telling her to delete each and every picture of you two together, to get rid of every moment of happiness you two have shared over your many years together. I'd be telling her to distance herself from you the way you've distanced yourself from her. It'd hurt her, and it'd cause god knows how much pain, but it's what would need to be done, to stop this whole charade from continuining any longer. Thankfully for you, I don't control her life, but it's still a suggestion that's made every now and then. Maybe one day she'll take me up on it, who knows?

One thing I do know: You can fuck off about attending our wedding. Sorry, but I don't want you there. I don't want you there as a bridesmaid, as a guest, or even as a fucking floor sweeper. I don't want you at the reception, I don't want to accept your congratulations on us tying the knot and committing ourselves to each other for the rest of our lives. In my mind, it would be a fake congratulation, because it's us getting married, and not you. And to be honest, I wouldn't feel like celebrating either if I saw you there, so stay away. That's an order.

So, what have we learned today? We've learnt that you're not able to keep your friends as close as your should. We've learnt that you've possibly burnt a few bridges between yourself and your "best friend". And we've learnt that there's absolutely nothing you're gonna do about it. Oh well, in the end, it's your loss, and nobody elses. Hope you learn to live with it one day. If not, then you'll learn to the tough way, when Mena isn't around for you to talk to.

-=Gavvie=-