Formerly known as FFXFan

...Mena will be home, and I'll be speaking to her on the phone, and everything will be as it was over two weeks ago. Well, not exactly on the same day, but you know what I mean, I hope.

So today's been a strange one. I got a call from Martin this morning at 9:25. That's Specsavers Martin, not my uncle or TK Maxx Floor Manager Anyway, they had what's called a Fundus (I may have spelt that wrong) Camera turn up, which is basically a £16k camera that takes a photo of the back of your eye, and they wanted me to pop in so I could be trained on how to use it. The selling point of going in today was that I'd work this afternoon, and then tomorrow morning, so I'd be splitting my day off in half. Seeing as Mena comes home tomorrow, I quickly agreed to do it, because then I've got more time to speak to her, and everybody's happy. So yeah, here I was thinking I'd finally get a DVD day, and I still don't get one XD Ah well, there's always Sunday.

This camera's pretty funky, Once the engineer people who were installing it were done, we were pretty much pratting around with it all afternoon, figuring out how it works and what patients would be seeing etc etc. Very nifty piece of kit. It's gonna scare old biddies to death though, so caution is most definately going to be a good thing. I would let you know how I get on, but odds are I'm going to be going back to odd blogs again now, so...blah. You might find out, you might not.

Unfortunately, the music making's taken a bit of a step backwards, in that I may have broken a somewhat essential part of the program I use, namely the PoiZone plugin. What's happened is this: I was running a virus scan the other day, and it brought up PoiZone's .dll file, saying that it was infected with a Trojan. Me being me, I just pressed delete and thought nothing of it at the time. So yesterday, when I fired FL Studio up to have a listen to what I've got, I got a pop up message saying that the PoiZone plug in couldn't be found. Then it all clicked, and I realised that I'd actually deleted the plug in. So, seeing as most of the tracks I had were using PoiZone in one form or another, I'm sure you can understand why I've ran into a bit of a brick wall. When I've got more than a few hours to spare, I'm going to have a hunt around on the Net, trying to find the same plugin that won't be infected with a Trojan or some crap. What makes this stranger is that I got Toxic III from the same site, yet the scanner didn't flag that up. Very odd. Still, yeah, at the moment Living Sedative, Overdose and my self titled work are all at a bit of a standstill.

I shall close this blog with something directed at my darling Mena, so I'm going to be breaking the fourth wall just a tiny bit. Babe, I hope that you've enjoyed reading these last 14 blogs. They've probably been a bit rambly, and boring, and shit like that, but at the end of the day I'm sure you'd expect nothing less of me Nah, in all honesty, I'm really glad you've enjoyed your holiday, and I'm glad that you've come home safe and sound. It might sound like a really corny thing to say, but I am. Still wish that I'd gone with you, because of all the things you've gotten up to that sound really fun, but that just makes me smile inside. Now that I know what kinda things you'll want to do when we go on holiday, I know that it's not going to be like the holiday's I went on with my parents. I know that I'm going to enjoy myself with you, and that we'd go off and do stuff that we want to do. It makes me happy to know that.

These past two weeks, I've felt like I'm missing something integral to who I am. Don't get me wrong, I've coped, but there's been times where I've just felt like I'm not entirely me. It's hard to explain, and it's probably harder to understand if you haven't felt it yourself, but hopefully you can understand what I'm trying to say, at least.

In short, I'm glad you're back, and I'm glad you enjoyed yourself. I'm glad that I won't be going to bed, thinking that something feels a bit weird because I was going to sleep without talking to you on the phone first. But first and formost, I don't want to sound selfish. I'm glad you're back and everything, but more importantly, I'm glad that you've had two weeks of fun, doing stuff you wanted to do (and stuff you thought you'd never do!)

I love you babe xxx
-=Gavvie=-